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I am burdened with so many emotions right now.  Honestly, I’m excited because after months (maybe even a year) of not doing a post like this – I’m proud to say that Sunday Letters is up and running at this moment.  I’m excited because it seems like it’s been ages since I’ve been able to write like this.  But, on the other hand, I’m filled with dread and an overwhelming sense of anxiety building up inside.  My Sunday Letters posts are a way for me to get a bit personal here and a way for me to put myself out there for others to read.  I miss it, but use it as a way to hold me accountable of things I set forth for myself.  It’s been a long while since I’ve done a post like this – so I’m going to get real for a moment and get you all caught up.

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Ugh… where do I begin?  It’s already March and I have been sick so many times over the last few months that I can’t even count or begin to.  I rang in the new year with the flu and I feel like it’s just all piling up on me like the plague.  No matter what I do to get my health back in check, I find myself dwindling into the despair of sick and tired… literally.  I have also been struggling with my weight.  What the frick is up with my weight?  No matter what I do health wise, it seems like I’m putting on weight versus losing no matter the countless hours and sweat I put into trying to drop the pounds.  My skin has been freaking the frick out… like literally freaking out and my once good skin is now proving that it has an alter ego that is mean and evil.  My skin is freaking out so bad it is worst now than it had been when I was in my teens.  How is that even possible?  How could this be?

“Some women fear the fire, some women simply become it…” – R.H. Sin

I think the health issues I’ve been having over the last year have been something that has literally been keeping my faith and my energy down.  Over the last 6 months I’ve had every possible friend contact me and tell me “I have this new product line or product for you to try and it will make your health better, help you lose weight.”  Trust when I say I have heard it all.  What I really want to tell these friends is that “I’m not your get rich quick guinea pig that you can dump your new product on to make money off of.”  I know, I might be a little harsh here, but it’s true.  Instead of telling me… “I’m sorry that you are going through this, how can I help?”  I get “hey, try this product and start using it faithfully and it will help you get better quick.”  Who the frick do these people think they are talking to?  I’m just over it.

Over the last 8 months, I have had more tests done to me than people have had in their lifetime.  And, I might add – these are not easy on my body.  Taking blood is like seeing a vampire for a neck bite.  I don’t have easy veins and they are what phlebotomist call “disappearing veins” because they move or you think they are there but it’s all an illusion.  Just to get a blood test done, I get poked and prodded over 5 times and then the blood suckers don’t even get enough blood to complete their testing.  I had to have a CT Scan and Endoscopy done within the last 8 months as well and the CT scan required the technician to send me to an ultrasound tech to find my veins so he could start my IV, a procedure that should have taken 15 minutes took 2 hours.  My Endoscopy – again, finding my vein to start my IV posed a challenge for the nurses, so after poking my arm over 8 times, they finally found a vein in my hand which wound up collapsing eventually, resulting in a huge bruise and a vein I can probably no longer use.  Then, so have anesthesia rendered to put me to sleep so that I wouldn’t feel the scope down my throat, only for the medicine to not put me to sleep and I be up the entire time.  These are just a small amount of issues I have with my body each day and it’s frustrating.

I have been waking up each day with a lost of drive lately.  Those that know me, know that that is unusual for me.  It’s outside of the norm of what many have come to expect from me and my personality.  I’m just so overrun with emotions that it’s frustrating and I’m frustrated.

The other day I was chatting with a friend when she basically told me… to my face, “You just need to lose the weight and everything in your health and life will be better.”  What the fuck?  Don’t you think I have already tried or am trying to do that?  Don’t you think that I know all too well that my weight is probably an issue?   I try and stay with a program day in and day out and it hasn’t worked!  So then, I ask you – why isn’t it working if you say that that is my end all, fix all?  Why?

I know I have ranted and vented in this post more than what anyone has ever seen here, but just know you may be seeing more of this.  I’m exhausted and more so exhausted of trying to explain myself to people who are supposed to support me, not tear me down.  My goal is to become the fire that is causing havoc in my life right now and not run and fear it.  So, I hope to update you all on my journey and let you know how things are going.  I have a series of different appointments with doctors coming up and I’ll be writing about those here as well… so stay tuned.

Anyway – on to Sunday letters…

Dear Kevin, my husband – You have been an unwavering support system for me and I didn’t expect anything otherwise.  I’m so thankful you are my rock for me to vent to and my shoulder to cry on and there is a reason why you are my best friend.  I don’t know how I could have gotten through these last several months without you.  Thank you for being there for me.

Dear God – Please, please give me the strength to be able to get passed this time in my life.  Whatever the issue with my body that seems like it’s failing me, please heal my body of its ailments and help to give me peace.  Please give me the strength to walk away from those that claim to be my friends but don’t realize they are putting me down while they are thinking that they are lifting me up.  And, please give me the courage to get my health back on track and my mind back to being and thinking positively.

Dear Friends (those that I talked about in this post) whether you are family or friends, this letter is for you.  I don’t despise you.  I don’t hate or and I’m certainly not mad at you, but more so disappointment in your actions.  You can be mad that I chose this route to discuss it, but I didn’t mention any names.  I can only hope and pray that God opens your eyes to how much you have hurt me.  I’m not hopeless or someone who is without hope for the future, I’m simply in a little bit of a rut at the moment.  Instead of pushing me down and making me feel more like crap and putting me deeper in depression, how’s about you offer positive reinforcement to help.  I don’t hate you, but can only hope that you can be a more positive influence instead of constantly tearing me down.

Signed,

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Whew… another week has begun and I feel like I didn’t quite finish up the tasks from last week to warrant starting a new one.  Let’s face it, who ever completes their daunting daily tasks deserves an award, because my list is ever growing and it seems like there is less and less time in a day to accomplish it all.  Nonetheless, I digress and try to move forward to the best of my ability.

“Significance is very different from success.  Significance means that you are adding value to others lives.  Once you taste significance, you won’t care about success anymore.” – John Maxwell

As I sit here at my desk working endlessly to get all of my ducks in a row for the next few days, I find myself wondering…  “Am I adding value to the lives of those that read this blog?”  Hmmm… don’t answer that… haha!  No, but kidding aside, I really wanted to take this site back to its roots and I find myself consistently asking the same question of myself each day.  Do I bring value to the table?  The quick answer would be, yes… right?  The long answer would be… I may not bring value to all but I certainly offer some form of value to a few, which in all honesty – is better than none at all.  Right?

So, what is it that you bring to the table that adds value to those around you?  Do you look at your worth by the amount of success you accomplish or do you look at your worth by how you help those around you?  In this day and age, let’s face it – not many people make the time to help others anymore.  When they do, it’s half assed and rushed causing you to really question their motivations as to why they lent that hand in the first place.  But should it really matter how much or how little someone has helped versus the fact that they have helped at all?  Let’s think about this for a second shall we?  If someone lends a helping hand for you (say, you have fallen and need some assistance standing up), do you feel grateful when they lean over and help you up and then ask you if you need anymore assistance or if you’re okay.  How about if they simply just helped you stand without a word and went on their merry way?  Which would you prefer?  Or are you like me and think that either way – the person took the time out of their day to help you regardless of small talk and that meant a lot to begin with?  I find that sometimes no words is not necessarily a bad thing.  In this time when so many are at fault with one another and there is so much bigotry and ignorance in the World, if a person took 30 seconds out of their day to help you in silence versus 5 minutes and took the time to have a conversation, we should be thankful that either person took the time regardless.  Those few seconds mean a lot to anyone who barely has enough time in the day to accomplish their own tasks at hand – don’t you think?

Lately I think my goal in life is to be significant.  It’s not about being successful (yes, we all strive for that in some way or another), but being significant means that I’m adding much more than just success to the table.  When you take the time to offer value and add value to those around you – you truly are significant.  Like John Maxwell said “Once you taste significance, you won’t care about success anymore.”  Well John, I agree – but I think that to be significant in the world, adding value to others’ lives around you is a success too.

Wishing you all a wonderful Monday.  May today and this week be filled with a plethora of inspiration to fill your bucket full.

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My husband and I have been married for over 15 years and together for almost 20.  I knew that when we started dating, there was a possibility that he would be in some form of Law Enforcement because – well, it’s a legacy honestly.  His Dad, brother, sister, uncles and Great Grandfather are well known in the industry of law enforcement, so I had expected that he would follow in their footsteps one day and that would be his calling.  A few years ago he made the commitment to become a Corrections Officer, or a CO which is a common term used in the field.  I knew what we were getting into as a family, but little did I know how it would affect us and our lifestyle moving forward.

It’s been almost 3 years since my husband was sworn in to be a Corrections Officer and since this is a Lifestyle site, I figured I would turn this particular post into a series, like my “Confessions of a Stay at Home Mom”.  After a few years, I’ve decided that this would be a great way for me to vent, share my ramblings and my support for this man I love.  So – stay tuned for more of these types of posts in the future. Now, let’s get into what it’s like to be a Corrections Officer’s Wife.

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What it is like to be a CO’s Spouse… the shortened version!

Let’s start with the statistics, shall we?  Corrections Officers have a 39 percent higher suicide rate than any other occupation, with a life expectancy of only 58 years.   Many don’t realize that that is 20 years less than the average American.  With mental illnesses like PTSD, anxiety and depression being a huge issue for CO’s in the industry and high divorce rates increasing consistently over the years.  As a couple, my husband and I knew the statistics, but we also know how strong our relationship is, though – I’ll be honest, this job has had its challenges on our strength over the years.

As if those statistics were the only thing we had to look forward to, there is the actual job itself.  Each day my husband walks through the gates of the facility he works in and each day I think about the dangers he faces behind the doors.  As I watch him leave the house, I’m consistently reminded of what lurks in the buildings he works in and I have to entrust his co-workers, his comrades to have his back when I struggle to give up that right to anyone already.  Disease, murderers, criminals – all of which he has to deal with on a daily basis, I have to entrust that he will have the right judgement calls to protect himself and believe that God will bring him home safely to me.

I understand that many in the field of law enforcement may have similar and high demands of what my husband has to deal with daily, but I also see that due to misconstrued issues, assumptions and past issues lend for Corrections Officers to have a bad reputation.  The fact of the matter is, most Corrections Officers do the job of a Police Officer day in and day out with little to no protection or weapon outside of their own bodies, their fists – to protect themselves.  They are the EMT (Emergency Medical Response / Paramedic) on scene, the Fireman to put out fires and the Police Officer with little to no recognition and much less resources than many of those uniformed enforcers have.  They are unrecognized in their job and what they do – day in and day out and many people scoff at what they are because they are ill informed of their daily job or duties.  My husband took an oath to serve a community and protect a population (inmates) and it can often be held against him or his fellow CO’s.  Or, held against me, because I am married to a CO.  The fact of the matter is – Police Officers spend a small portion of time with these criminals, inmates, those that are doing time… only to drop them off at the Correctional Facility where my husband spends his entire day with them until they are released, if they are released.  Again, during this time only protecting himself with his own fists, no weapon to protect himself other than his eyes and his own body.

“He’s a Police Officer, EMT, Fireman all in one!”

I’ve often been asked why my husband doesn’t make appearances as often as he used to on my channel and blog and frankly, it has a lot to do with the safety of our family.  It may seem like it is not a big deal or small sacrifices for great reward but the fact of the matter is – my husband is in a field most people know little about and those that think they know, are assuming or using strong allegation, rumor and no knowledge to judge appropriately.  As a family, a job like this really pulls at the heart strings and waiting as my husband comes home each night safely is one of the hardest things I could have ever experienced as a wife.

We are a strong family that is close and we always have each others back, but something like this can definitely test your strength, your beliefs and your love.  I’ve had sleepless nights, more so now after there have been issues in the modules where my husband has already been injured and I’m sure that this job will continue to weigh on my heart over the years.  I’ve had to explain to our children why their dad could not come home in time to watch a performance, because there are times when there is a lock-down or he is required to work overtime.  I’ve had to fight back tears when my husband comes home to tell me what he had to deal with at work.  I am the protector of my household and children while my husband is away – bearing arms to protect us from dangers and staying strong when I know I just want to fall apart.  But, as a proud wife of a Corrections Officer, I stand tall and thank God for his blessings and for protection over my husband as he continues in his career.  It’s not an easy task, but hey, such is life – right?

If you are a CO’s wife, know that you are not alone.  And while times can get tough and everything and anything will test your strength, there are women like us that are here for support.  Like I mentioned before, I hope to have more of these in the future, so keep an eye out for that.  Even if it’s just something to give you a little guidance or a few words to remind you that you’re not alone, I want to be able to share this with you.

Hold on, have Faith! You are not alone! – Honey

 

Who am I?

Well, it’s obvious that I am a blogger (just call me an editor – lol), Photographer, an art lover and self proclaimed gourmet food aficionado (otherwise known as major foodie) as well as a creative brain waiting to jump out and show the world what I can do.  But, most importantly – I am a Wife and Mother.

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“Cut not the wings of your dreams, for they are the heartbeat and the freedom of your soul.” – Flavia

I have a husband named Kevin who has been and continues to be my rock, my strength and my biggest supporter.  If you know anything about me, then you know that for years, I struggled to discover myself and who I wanted to be and what I wanted to do.  Through it all, our love has stood the test of time and through our ups and downs – through sleepless nights and times when we had no money, we persevered and looked past it all.  We continue to love one another, commit our hearts to each other and look forward to a lifetime of memories.

A year or so ago I was approached by a colleague that asked me a question that I never thought I would ever have to answer.  But, in answering her question I realized that our world is not what we consistently hope it to be.  While I constantly live in my own fairy tale, many are just longing for love.  Today I share with you her question and my response.

Friend:  “How can you be so in love with someone, after all these years… and talk about him as if you have a new found relationship – like teenagers?  You guys act like you are newly in love.”

My answer: “How can you not? When you give your love to someone, during your wedding vows or other – don’t you commit to them with all your heart and soul? Shouldn’t love be fun and interesting? Shouldn’t you live each day for one another – be there for each other and more importantly, love like you don’t have tomorrow. It’s different when you fall in love with someone and marry them. They are your best friend, your soul mate. Your love for them can only grow more and more as time passes.”

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It’s corny – I know… but it’s true! This is who I am and what I feel inside.  There are times when I get so busy and wrapped up into being a wife and mother, that I often don’t pay attention to how strong my love is.  Sometimes, I find myself in extreme auto-pilot, living through each day as if I were a part of a robotic colony completing each task on automatic mode.  But, while those times can come more often than not, I know that I can always stop and be so thankful for where I am in life and how far it has taken me.

I also mentioned being a mother.  I have three beautiful boys and while they are all their own individual selves with their own personalities, they helped to mold me into the mother I am today.  Through many times of the utmost insanity, my boys have helped me to keep it all together.  I’m not gonna lie, being a mother is already a challenge and topping it off with three VERY active boys is icing on the cake.  My eldest (Kevin Ka’eo) is now 12 years old and is already going through that stage of being “too grown up” for his parents – yikes.  And, the twins (Luke & Isaiah) are now 6 years old with an agenda each all their own.  All of them keep me absolutely on my toes… between school functions, sports and just an overall lack of sleep – but I wouldn’t trade it for anything.  These boys are my love bugs, they have captured my heart forever.

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You see, in life – we meet new people, gain new relationships and take on many challenges. I am who I am today because of those who have inspired me to be more than I could ever imagine. I would never change any of it – Never, ever!  I have a strength that many people cease to exude.  It’s not that they don’t have it, but merely because they don’t realize they do.

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The strength behind my soul is my family.  These four people in my life that not only provide the biggest support that I could ask for as a person, but the foundation of which my life succeeds.  I’m stronger because of them and for them and my soul, my heart is whole because of the love I have for them.  They say that love is what makes or breaks a person – it is what develops a person into who they become and what their future will hold.  If that’s the case, I think my future is bright and my soul is strong because I live a love that most people only dream of.

Wishing you all a wonderful day! Thanks for letting me pour out my heart and soul for all of you! xo

“A book is only as strong as its cover that holds and binds its pages.”  – Honey

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Have you ever had those days when you wake up and feel like an epiphany has completely taken over your body?  The feeling overwhelms you and leaves you stunned and in awe.  I swear, it seems like over the last month I have been going through this very thing several times a week.  It delights me that I can go to bed in the evening and wake up the next morning with my head filled with thoughts that I simply can’t wait to get onto paper.  This has been my routine lately and my mind is telling me to pay attention to the signs as they are what my heart is telling me my soul wants.  In 2015, everything I did and everything I strived for had to do with self discovery, finding out who I am and what I want out of life.  It was about growth, not only for myself but my family and about strength because we had to really rely on one another to ensure success or simply to just get by.  This year, I want to take everything I learned from 2015 and incorporate it into my personal “Planner” so to say, that will enable success and ultimately, help me to achieve my life goals.  Let’s face it, living life is an accomplishment already and last year was a challenge all its own.

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So, what’s in store and what’s new for Honey?  Well, first of all I really feel like over the years I lost my identity and who I truly am and last year after really accomplishing so much more than I thought I ever could personally, I realized that the little changes I made to my routine and myself created a monster.  Not the scary, freaky and ugly kind, but the kind that really wasn’t satisfied with everything or anything.  I should be tapping myself on the back, applauding my accomplishments and realizing that not only am a I strong, confident and beautiful woman but that I attained and superseded a plethora of goals I had and I didn’t even realize it.

“I would like to be known as an intelligent woman, a courageous woman, a loving woman, a woman who teaches by being.” – Maya Angelou

This year 2016 my mind has been made up.  My goal is to engage in my thoughts and bring them all to life.  Like an artist takes to his canvas or a writer to paper, my plan is to really embrace who I am as a person and use that as my strengths, not my weaknesses.  One of the things I plan to do is start with making changes to my blog – I know, I know, yet again.  I realized a lot about myself last year and that is that I lost my sense of personal identity on my site.  I found that I was producing content that lost my personal sense of style.  I love doing product reviews and I really truly enjoy trying new products and new things – but I lost the embodiment of what Honeygirl’s World really is… My World, My Life – the things I love.  My site turned into a plethora of beauty (which isn’t a bad thing), but while my reviews showcased my personality, I felt that I still lost a lot of who I really am.  This year I plan to incorporate more of me into the site and retro back to what it used to be when I first starting blogging.  My site will not only be for reviewing my favorite products, but sharing bits and pieces of who I am and what I love.  I kind of feel like all of that got lost over the years and I plan to bring it all back.  I started Honeygirl’s World as a way to document my life and that is where I plan to take it once again.

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So what can you expect from me?  Well, as if I wasn’t a blatantly honest soul – you can expect that much and more.  I really want to hold myself accountable for all the things that I let slack over the years.  My goal is to keep on top of YouTube, posting three or more videos a week – we’ll see how that turns out and just keep that portion of my life much more organized.  I want to really keep on top of my blog – posting 5x or more a week, preferably more and work at keeping the content fresh and exciting but also weave in so much more of myself that you’ll feel like we are bff’s and know me on a personal level.  I want to also check off things from my bucket list and in order to do that I must be more diligent and really make this “Stay at Home, Work From Home Mom” thing work.  I want to make even more time for family… my family – my husband and children are my everything and so this year I plan to really be “Super Mom & Wife”.

“You can fail at what you don’t want, so you might as well take a chance at doing what you love…” – Jim Carrey

In a week, I’ll be turning 36 years old and I’ve reached that point in my life where I don’t think I’m even old… the 30’s are the new 20’s anyway.  I’ve embraced my looks, my beauty and what I look like on the outside so now I just need to embrace my beauty on the inside and continue to feed my soul.  Will you be on this journey with me?  I hope you’ll stick around and see!

Wishing you all a wonderful 2016 and a year filled with endless blessings and happiness!

xo

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Is it just me or is this week dragging on even with the Labor Day Holiday this past Monday?  Honestly, I feel it is just taking forever but needless to say – I’m glad it is finally Thursday.

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Today for this week’s segment of Thirsty Thursday we get on a personal level about some updates with my health.  I also discuss a few things that have been on my mind lately like the negativity in society and press samples as well as so much more.  Check out my video embedded below or click here to watch it directly on YouTube.

Thank you so much for joining me today. Remember – you are beautiful! And, if you are joining me this Thirsty Thursday – whatever your drink of choice, drink responsibly.

xo

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Disclaimer:  As with anything discussed on this site, I hold editorial freedom.  Nothing discussed in this video or post was sponsored for me to feature it.  All opinions are my own and 100% honest and unbiased.

If you follow me on Snapchat – then you know that avenue has pretty much taken the place of my daily vlogs that I used to do on YouTube.  I do miss posting daily vlogs of my life and my family, but editing and craziness can sometimes take its toll and I just haven’t found the time.  If you are on Snapchat – definitely stop on by and check out my daily life as I post several times a day and share my wackiness with you.

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I have combined all or most of my snaps from the month of August on my YouTube channel to share with you.  (click here to watch directly on YouTube or embedded below)  Since snaps are deleted daily I have been downloading them to upload to YouTube in place of my vlogs.  Are you on Snapchat?  Add me by scanning the photo (taking a picture) of the thumbnail above as there is a special code in the photo that will allow you to add me directly.

Follow me on snapchat – @honeygirlk1 and share my daily life with me.  I post daily and will also be uploading a few times a month on YouTube so my future snap posts like this one will not be as long.  Have a wonderful weekend loves! xo

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Disclaimer:  I am not being paid to feature or discuss Snapchat – this is just a fun post to share with all of you!

Happy Sunday Love bugs.  I’m stopping in to say hi a bit, but I also really want to start blogging daily (if at all possible) and I miss my Sunday Letters posts.  Yesterday I started a weird aching pain in my ear, near the cartilage that seems to force itself into my ear and half of my head.  It’s kind of an odd pressure but it has been causing me some crucial migraines today since waking up this morning.  Because of this, I got a terribly late start and I’m not too happy about that… because that means, things on my “To Do” list have really taken a back seat today.

So how is everyone doing today and how was your weekend?  There are so many things happening this week and I’m very excited for them.  While today was super hot and humid and muggy, I am looking forward to cooler weather this Fall.  Hawaii doesn’t really experience season changes and unfortunately we don’t have leaves that really change colors as Autumn approaches (that makes me sad), but you can certainly feel the difference in the breeze and chill factor.  This coming weekend my husband and I make 17 years together as a couple… our “Going Out” or “Dating” anniversary.  We don’t have anything planned because his week at work is pretty hectic, but nonetheless, I’m excited for the day.  And, Grey’s Anatomy’s new season is just days away… trust me when I say this ex Medical Surgical Tech can’t wait to watch all the drama unfold. lol

I also have been seeing all the rave for the new iPhones, lol.  I own a Samsung Galaxy Note 2 and I’ve had it now for almost two years and my phone is still going strong with no problems.  I have a lot of iPhone friends, but I think I’ll stick with the original “piece of toast” phone… and know that when it’s time to upgrade, I’ll be sticking with another Android phone, probably another Samsung.  I know that people have their favorites, but I have never been a fan of iPhone or iTunes… I’m Pro Android all the way. lol  Just figured I’d throw that in.  If you are a friend of mine that loves iphone, I have nothing against ya. lol j/k

The Annual Pumpkin Patch should be in full swing soon, so I know you’ll be seeing some photos of us there when we take the boys.  I’m excited!  The twins will be visiting the patch with their classmates for Pre-school, but every year we take them to pick our carving pumpkin.  I can’t wait to go.  🙂

Hoping you all had a wonderful weekend and wishing you a fabulous rest of your week!

xo

In 2011 I created this makeup look.  It was one of my most popular then, one that definitely got attention and it was even featured on the Homepage of Beautylish that year.  I’m not gonna lie, it was exciting and definitely cool to see years of playing and doing makeup to see your work start to get noticed on the Worldwide Web.  Looking back at this photo from almost 3 years ago is a reminder of how far I have come… not only in learning more about makeup, but more about my skin, about how I thought of myself, my appearance and so much more.  Basically – looking back on this, I am reminded of how far I have come as a person… my throwback Thursday is about reflection of where I have been and how far I have come.

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Have you ever stopped to look at an old photo and think to yourself… “Wow – time sure has come and gone!” and then realize that the path you have taken the last couple of years while difficult was a road that needed to be traveled?  Yup – that was me… and let me just say, that this road was one filled with a lot of learning.  I’m proud to say that I have learned so much about the person I am and it’s taken three years to realize that a person can grow overnight.  Let’s be honest here… we didn’t think that this was all going to be about makeup… right?

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While this photo was taken just under three years ago, it shows a person who isn’t smiling… who looks, almost rugged and rough.  Yes, the pretty face (lol) and exterior may look nice, but this is the photo of a woman who is still trying to figure out who she is in the beauty community… but realized later that she is exactly who she was meant to be… herself.  So now… when you look at a photo of this women, majority of the time, there is a smile on her face… and when there is not – it’s just because she is trying to look fashionable. lol  I have learned more than ever in the last 3 years that beauty is only skin deep… and that it was important that I must be comfortable in my own skin.  I’m not gonna lie, I have those days where I wallow in self doubt… come on now, we all do – no matter how much we try to get away from it.  But, I have also learned to look in the mirror and be proud of who I am, the accomplishments over the years, how I look and most importantly know that the company I keep is worth my time, energy and love.

People forget that life is a journey… every day – every week – every year… we learn and we either grow by learning or we take a step back and become what we are not meant to be, when all we are supposed to be… is ourselves.  Love and Kisses from me to you!

xo

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If you have been keeping tabs on me over the last couple of weeks, you’ll know that it has been such a trying time on myself and my family – having lost a few loved ones, dealing with sickness and planning for other things.  I’m not going to lie, I think the word “Challenge” is short of what has happened this past month.  But nonetheless, I know that things happen and while we don’t plan to deal with it, sometimes we just have to take it all in stride.   Here’s what I say to it all… remember to love your family and be thankful that they are in your life.  Know that with any downfall, there is always something wonderful right behind that.

So – on a positive note… everyone in my immediate family seems to have gotten over their colds. Yippee!  I took the twins in to get their flu shots since they have been sick off an on pretty frequently since the new year started.  I know there are many out there that do not agree with shots, but it’s always worked for my family – no side effects in sight and I will continue to give it to them until I feel otherwise.  I’m glad they finally got it… along with their annual shots with their physical they received last week.  There was a measles outbreak on the other island next to us, so I didn’t want to take any chances.

In a few short weeks my eldest starts Basketball Season.  He’s so excited.  He didn’t play last year and really missed it.  He is really good at the game and I know he’s looking forward to playing with his new and old teammates.  I’m excited too because while he’s practicing it will give me the opportunity to take the twins to the park and get some walking in.  I’m always on my journey to losing more weight – so it’s always a great thing to find extra opportunities to get some cardio in my day.

So – my quick update was just to fill everyone in on what is going on.  At the end of the day, no matter all the difficulty and troubles… sometimes we have to stop and remember to smell the roses!  Through all of our trials and challenges, we can all often forget all the little things that make us smile – like getting over colds, an upcoming Sport season, working out or just enjoying life with your family.  Wishing you all a wonderful rest of your week.

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I have struggled the last couple of weeks coming up with the words to put into this post to describe to all of you what my “Perception of Beauty” really was.  I jotted down ideas and thoughts, quotes and an overall view of what I wanted to say, but every time I put it down on paper or typed it out, it portrayed something completely different from what I had been trying to get across.  Honestly, I didn’t think I would be able to come up with anything and have had difficulty putting my thoughts into words.  You see… my perception of Beauty is very different from that of most, to me – I see beauty as a wonder and I see it in Everything.  As a Photographer, I have captured many beautiful scenes, memories, moments over the last few years, and growing up in Hawai’i has given me the opportunity to live in Paradise and see landscapes people only dream of.  “Beauty at its finest!”  But experiencing such, living those moments… doesn’t necessarily mean you see beauty as others do and your perception of beauty could be entirely different.  So – let’s start off with what Beauty really means as defined by a Dictionary:

Beauty: (beau-ty)

a combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, esp. the sight.

So – let’s ask that question once again… What is my perception of beauty?  I’ll be honest… I think beauty comes in all forms, all sizes, all colors and all shapes, but to me – Beauty comes from within!  Beauty to me means that you not only love yourself but that you are comfortable in the skin you are in.  Beauty also means that you embrace the World in all its wonder instead of criticizing it for not being perfect.  If there is one thing I learned about the Beauty community or Beauty showcased in a whole, is that there is a romantic notion over making others feel like they are not beautiful.  Don’t get me wrong, not everyone thinks or acts this way – but it seems that the Perception of Beauty is that “to each his own” and that you have to look a certain way, act a certain way and treat others a certain way to look or feel beautiful.

Society would like us to think that Beauty is what you see on the covers of magazines – flawless skin, makeup, hair, bodies.  When in actuality we are not all cookie cutter shaped Barbies that our World would like us to be.  We are all people in a World of PERFECT IMPERFECTIONS that make us unique and individual.  Beauty is not about makeup, it’s not about covering up your flaws to make yourself feel beautiful.  It is about empowering yourself and those around you to love one another and love being you.  It’s about knowing that you are perfect, no matter what the popularity vote may be.

It’s funny that I come and talk to you all about “being comfortable in your own skin” and not needing makeup to feel beautiful when I do makeup tutorials and looks for YouTube and my blog often.  But I’ll be honest, I don’t use makeup everyday… in fact, I love a bare face and I’m comfortable leaving my house that way.  I don’t care that people will look at me and say… “whoa, she looks different without her face on”, because I love who I am.  I usually put on a little mascara (I have super short lashes lol) and maybe some lip balm and I’m out the door.  Because to me… Societies definition of Beauty DOES NOT define ME!

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I don’t know that this post truly explained what my perception of beauty truly is… but I hope it got my message across.  I’m still not sure that the words I put here are what I wanted to convey, but nonetheless – I think I did an okay job.  Humanity as a whole needs to know that while there are beautiful men, women and children everywhere… we need to know that we can find beauty in ourselves.  It all starts with us, one person at a time.  If there is one thing I wish that the Beauty Community that I’m a part of would do, it is to establish that you don’t need to be “flawless” to be beautiful and that bullying others to thinking so or feeling inferior is wrong.  But, that’s another post I’ll try to tackle another time.

I’ll leave you with one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite Artists as I close this post.  Know that YOU are (pardon my french) FRICKEN AMAZING – Just the way you are and “if perfect’s what you’re looking for… then just stay the same” and love yourself.  Be comfortable in your skin and know that I love you for you with all my heart, and support you for who you are!  EMBRACE & LOVE YOUR PERFECT IMPERFECTIONS!  xo Honey

 

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Whew… this week kind of flew by for me.  It’s nice to get it out of the way because my whole family has been sick off and on the last 2 weeks… “Get out of my house sick!”  Anywho… it’s Thirsty Thursday time and I had a lot to say this week.  Check out my video and give me some feedback.  What are your thoughts about makeup?  Is too much, really too much?  Are you going to be settling down on your makeup purchases this year (a resolution & goals for 2014 will be posted soon).  What was your drink of choice today?  (my Thirsty Thursday video is embedded below).

Also – I wanted to share a little Throwback with all of you.

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The photo above was taken in 1997 or 1998 (I think in the early part of 1998, before I graduated from High School).  My husband (then boyfriend) and I were at a party and someone took this photo of us.  Contrary to my smile (or lack thereof), I was a pretty happy lady.  Oi – look at those brows – lmao.  I was always more of a natural brow type of person, even now… I mostly set it with a brow gel if I can get away with it. lol

5 Things you may not know about me or this photo…

  1. I loved Aaliyah’s style – and had a thing for baggy pants and plaid/flannel.  I still love her style and would rock out Timbalands and baggy overalls any day – lol.  I wish that style came back… totally love the 90s.
  2. I was rocking out side bangs in this photo.  I flat ironed it so it would lay nicely and kind of sprayed it in place.  Because of my naturally curly hair, if I didn’t do so – I would have looked like a poodle.  It was not by choice that I had this hairstyle… someone just wanted to butcher my hair. lol
  3. I married this very handsome, sexy man in this photo – we have 3 beautiful kids together and believe it or not… I chased after him for 4 years before we started dating… but that’s another story. lol
  4. I am super tan in this photo because those were the days I surfed a lot and you could find me at the beach almost everyday.  Now – I just don’t have the passion for it – so I have since lightened up quite a bit. lol
  5. I have kept my brows this shape for years (the same as in the photo) and have not changed them up ever.  I have been pretty lucky to have full and nice brows in my lifetime. 🙂

Hope you guys had an awesome Thursday – I’m hoping to get mine wrapped up and settled down!  Have a wonderful rest of your week.  Don’t forget to watch Thirsty Thursday’s video below.

 

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Love Your Life!I am not going to lie… Life has its way of kind of catching you by surprise and swallowing up your insides making it feel like all is lost and difficult.  I went through that on more occasions than I would like to remember… or count – but the last few years, well… they have really shown me a side of life that I am so happy to share with all of you.

A few years ago I had made friends with people who lived to make my life miserable… and because of it, I had forgotten how awesome my life truly was.  From an awesome and supportive (did I mention hawt?) husband and 3 beautiful sons, sometimes the things we love so much, we tend to disregard as the “constants” in our life and forget how important they truly are.  Don’t get me wrong… it’s not that we forget about them, but forget about how they often make us feel… happy, loved, supported and the butterflies that flutter around in our stomachs when we think of them – that’s all real feelings that we tend to cast aside from time to time.  Last year, I made every possible effort to move forward from those terrible people that worked so hard to make me miserable and just cast them aside… leaving me to concentrate on all the things that made me happy.  And, you know what I realized?  I absolutely LOVE MY LIFE!  How many people can say that?  How many people can say that their life is so wonderful (regardless of all the downs and challenges) that they love to live it – so much so that they are “In Love” with their life?  Well, I will admit that the road here was a challenge.  Not necessarily because I hated my life but because I didn’t focus on the things that were so awesome and there is so much greatness in my life right now and there always has been.

So – this post, while long winded has a purpose.  This year – now 2014, I am going to remind myself  how awesome life is, how great of a support system I have and how much I love everything beautiful and I know it will make for an awesome year.  (hmmm… I think I need a thesaurus… a little too much Awesome in this post. lol) Each time you think of a struggle that has you down, think about all the things that make you smile.  When times are tough and you feel like you have hit rock bottom, remember… there are people out there that love you unconditionally.  There is always a positive to any negative and smile to a frown.  Together – let’s make 2014 AWESOME.  So, like Jack Kerouac says… “Be in Love with Your Life, Every minute of it!” and make the best of 2014 and every single day of your existence.  While times are tough, God would never give us anything we cannot handle!

Wishing you all a wonderful 2014 filled with Happiness, Prosperity and Love.  It’s going to be an awesome year – no exceptions!

With Love!

Honey

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